599) God Made You


     Russell Saltzman has been a newspaper reporter, a congressman’s press secretary, and deputy secretary of the state of Kansas.  Since 1980 he has been a Lutheran pastor, serving parishes in Missouri, Nebraska, Illinois, and South Carolina.  From 1991-2007 he was the editor of Forum Letter, an independent Lutheran publication of the American Lutheran Publicity Bureau.  The following article is edited from an article by Saltzman first published in the August 2002 issue of the Forum Letter.


     I belong to an on-line support group composed of adult children born of rape or incest.  There are more of us in the former category than the latter.  Jennifer is our webmistress, organizer, facilitator, coach, head nanny, chief nag (though very nice about it), and the child of a violent rape.  Mostly, I lurk.  But for some in the group, I am a kind of unofficial chaplain and sometime pastoral advisor.  There are children born before Roe v. Wade as well as children born after Roe v. Wade.

     We tell stories about how we found out about our birth circumstances, and what that knowledge has meant.  For every one of us, it was a discovery.  No one was raised knowing the circumstances of his birth, but all of us are adoptees who simply wanted to know our origins for medical reasons or just to gain a more complete personal sense of identity.  Finding we were children of rape was an incidental outcome, but always a fundamental shock.  The biographical fact of adoption, frequently problematic in its own way, can become impossibly complicated with that extra layer of detail squatting on top of it.

     If you want a genuine encounter with all the old “why am I here?” questions with none of the abstractions attached—our chat room positively wallows in it, and for understandable reasons.  These are ordinary people, after all, fairly attuned to the ordinary pulses of good and evil in this world, trying to come to grips with how their life can be the result of something that was so horrifically bad for someone else.  Still, as I always ask when that question arises, cannot a child born of rape be an instance of God working good from evil, a lesson that Joseph learned and then taught to his brothers (Genesis 50:19-21)?

     We get into discussions about our discussions with pro-choice advocates.  There isn’t one of us who hasn’t been told by a pro-choice supporter that support for abortion, especially in those hard cases like rape, is, of course, “nothing personal.”  I’m sure the delegates at the Presbyterian Church (USA) meeting in Columbus, Ohio, late last June (2002) would say the same thing.  The PCUSA general assembly voted 394 to 112 in support of an unrestricted right to abortion, at least until such time as the fetus can survive outside the womb.  Thereafter, abortion should be done only to preserve the life of the mother, to “avoid fetal suffering,” or in cases of rape and incest.

     The Presbyterians have adopted a position similar to that of the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, and like the ELCA, PCUSA’s medical benefits plan for clergy and church workers regards an elective abortion as a reimbursable medical expense.  There is no reimbursement for an elective nose job, even if your nose is big enough to qualify as a county in Rhode Island, but that’s just policy, nothing personal.

     Everyone deals with issues of birth and origin—well, they do if they are conscious and sentient.  The perilous biologic journey of sperm and egg from conception to zygote to blastocyst to embryo to fetus is just so much random chance that particular questions about the particularity that you represent are inevitable.  

     If somebody had a headache that night, you wouldn’t be here.

     If the 64-some cells that formed the blastocyst had failed to travel the fallopian tubes, you wouldn’t be here.

     If the blastocyst had failed to implant itself on the uterine wall, you wouldn’t be here.

     There are a thousand natural reasons why you should not be here, and the chances of your being here at all are unutterably impossible.

     The chances of pregnancy from rape are even chancier.  Actual pregnancies resulting from reported rapes are ridiculously miniscule, point-oh-oh-oh-something per thousand.  But it is always somebody’s bad luck when they do happen and the “ifs” roll on.  If she had stayed out of the parking lot that night; if she had been more aware of her surroundings; if the guy she met hadn’t been a twisted creep; if her stepbrother hadn’t forced her on the sofa. If.

     Absent a creator—absent God, the Father almighty, maker of heaven and earth—your conception and birth are exactly that, dumb blind chance and meaningless in the extreme.

     Yet we Christians believe that God, the Father almighty, maker of heaven and earth, made you.  And me.  And a very talented, warm-hearted woman named Jennifer, with two sweet kids of her own.  Her body itself, and my body, aging though it is, carries a living and breathing rebuke to those who regard human life as a matter of convenience.  

     Against all appearances to the contrary, imagine this:  God, the Father almighty, maker of heaven and earth, made her, made me, made you.  It is more personal than the Presbyterians or the Lutherans will admit. 


Psalm 139:13-17a:

…You created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!

Human fetus in utero at 20 weeks


 PSALM 22:9-11:

You brought me out of the womb;
    you made me trust in you, even at my mother’s breast.
From birth I was cast on you;
    from my mother’s womb you have been my God.

Do not be far from me,
    for trouble is near, and there is no one to help.